I am not sure where this month has gone, but 30 Minutes in the Life is live again. This month I actually got out and took photo’s. For the past 3 months ever since I had foot surgery, Richard has wanted to go off road bicycle riding. I have not felt up to going anywhere, but he could have gone. I think he really wants me to get out. Problem is I really don’t feel like getting out. So last weekend I suggested that if he wanted to go I would be happy to do so. The state park is about 1 hour from where we live and so we left around 8am so that he would be able to cycle in the slightly cooler weather. The park is pretty big, and while I would like to say I walked around, I really drove to places and walked short distances.
When it came to editing I think the images I wanted to push myself outside of my comfort zone and go dark. I experimented with burning edges and vignettes.
Possibly this is a reflection of what my mood has been this week. Tuesday evening was the highlight with me having a major meltdown, that resulted in tears and a pity party for one. Just being real here.
Part of it is all about expectations. I expect, and others expect me to be able to do more than I really can do. I am back at work, and moving around so I should be able to do what I was doing before. However, the frustration for me is that I can’t. I am dealing with daily swelling. I am learning to walk differently. My foot hurts, my heel hurts even more, and I am the only one that knows that. No one else can feel the pain or what I am going through. I wish I could wave a wand and make it better, but the realization is that this is a slow, slow journey and I have to deal with it the best way I can.
So here are my dark, moody images for the month of October.
I hope I have not depressed you but I am just keeping it real. I have been really good up until now, and the week just got to me and the tipping point just sent me over the edge. I am back up and I am doing things but as I write this I know that within a short while I am going to head to the bed and elevate and ice my foot. I am grateful for the people in this group, and the friends I have in the different photography groups, and those that I work with who have encouraged me and strengthened me through this journey. I don’t say it enough but without Richard and his help, I probably would have melted long ago.
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